Thursday, August 9, 2012

Only The Beginning

 

August 6

I’m writing this on the plane that will take me home. Nine flights, 2 train rides, a dozen subways, and well over 200 hours on the road and now I am down to my last hour in transit. My journey is almost over.

I’ve been thinking about how I am different from the girl who left in May. I prayed God would change me and break my heart for Africa and He did. I can’t come home and start up life where I left up. There is no going back to normal for me and I thank God for that.

The things I saw will never leave my mind and will truly impact how I think and decisions I make. It’s impossible for them not to. I can’t pretend like I don’t remember the faces and villages.

I’m so thankful God gave me the opportunity to spend my summer in Africa. It was harder than I thought it would be and more life changing than I anticipated. I saw God like never before and we have grown closer every day. When He is all you have you finally have a chance to realize He is enough. No matter where you are in life or in the world He will always be enough.

In just a few minutes I will land and be swept back into life as I know it in America.  Although my time in Africa is over and this amazing adventure overseas has come to an end I feel like this is just the beginning of a new journey. Today I start my life with all of the knowledge I gained during my summer. The life lessons and chats with my Jesus will make every day at home seem new even though my surroundings are familiar. I can’t wait to start living with Him entirely in control of my life and giving everything up to Him. I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow and have the opportunity to show someone God’s love. He has lit a fire in my soul!

Goodbye to the people and land of Africa and hello to a life with Africa and its lessons always on my mind. I’m ready for this! Oh Africa. Hope to see you again soon!

Top Ten Encounters: Week 11

 

August 4

1) Medical clinic! My experience of treating malnourished kids was amazing. I was so saddened to see such sick kids but I can’t explain how fulfilling it was to do something to help them feel better. The most exciting part was 6 moms decided to give their hearts to Jesus! And that was only at my station. There were well over 100 commitments throughout the week!

2) Road kill = dinner. We hit a bird with the bus on the way back from the clinic one day and all the Africans cheered! They stopped the bus and raced a good 200 meters back down the road to retrieve the dead bird. I’ve been deer hunting and have shot a bow before but I never really thought about using a vehicle for hunting. Occasionally we would swerve to try to hit one of the many rabbits running across the road. Oh Africa!

3) Translator testimonies. Throughout the week I got to know my translator Julienne pretty well. She is a 25 yr old student studying english and has a heart for teaching. All of the translators were english students in university. We had the great privilege of hearing their testimonies on our last day. Their faith and what it cost them makes me feel ashamed. They gave up family and have had to trust God for so much! They really inspire me to give up even more for my Jesus.

4) Tehankounibe. My experience with the precious little boy I talked about in my previous blog was not just one of the top encounters of this week but one of the top encounters of my life.

5) Africa style. Every time I went to church the young ladies would snicker about how I was wearing my wrap since it was different from how they did it and they would insist on rewrapping me up. I never did learn the right way to do it no matter how hard I tried so I walked around being unfashionable in their eyes all summer. This week Celine took me to the tailor and helped me have an African outfit made! It is authentic and fits great. I’m so happy to finally have something to wear that is in style in Africa. Only problem is I never had a chance to wear it! Oh well. Maybe I can set a new trend in the US.

6) Goodbyes. I had a hard time saying goodbye to all of the great people I met. Mimi and I were planning on having her hop in my suitcase and coming home with me...but it didn’t quite work out. The hardest part was when they asked when I was coming back. I told them the only answer I have, God only knows. I will miss them but am looking forward to seeing them in Heaven if not sooner!

7) Paris! Beautiful. Classy. Architecture. Coffee. Pastries. Eiffel Tower. River tour. History. Train. Wonderful. Enough said.

8) Glasses clinic. I have never seen anything cuter than the old men wearing the new glasses they were given by the Williston team through the eye glasses clinic. They walked around with huge smiles and were so proud of their new glasses. They were so happy to be able to see again!!

9) Radical. The Williston team chose to read the book Radical to base our evening devotions on and they brought us a copy to read throughout the week. I didn’t get to finish it all but what I did read was sooo good and challenging. I recommend the book! I pray that I really will be radical for Christ. Why not?

10) Shock. Not only did I experience reverse culture shock in Paris, but I experienced what I will call “time shock.” I could not believe I was leaving Africa. It felt like I really did live there and that I was never going to leave. The fact that it was time to go did not seem real. Although I long for home I think that a part of me belongs in Africa now. It has definitely taken a piece of my heart. Please pray that all of the “shocks” I am having will turn into easy transitions when I get back home!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Tears of Tehankounibe

August 2

On Thursday we did a clinic at the village of Balambar. We had a good day and saw over 100 kids. I was just starting to pack up my things when a woman came and tapped me on the shoulder. She motioned for me to follow her outside. We walked outside of the church to a tree where a few mothers and their children were sitting in the shade. She turned and pointed in a different direction towards a field of cotton. In the dirt on the edge of the field sat a little boy who was crying. As I approached him I noticed the flies covering his head and other parts of his body. The smell was horrible. I knelt down to examine the child and discovered over half of his head was covered in puss from an infection and some of it had caked on. The same infection was on his lower back and certain areas on his legs and feet. I picked up the precious little boy and walked to the women under the tree. I asked, “who is this boy’s mother?” They laughed nervously back at me. I had forgotten about the language barrier so I switched to french and asked three more times. No one would answer me. They just shook their heads and said something like “elle partie,” she has gone. A translator from our team came over to help and found out that his mother had abandoned him and left for the city. His father was at home but does not care for him.

I asked the woman who had shown me the child if she would please accompany him so that he could go through the clinic since we require an adult to be present. She agreed and we returned to the one room church building that was serving as our screening for children, malnutrition treatment, malaria testing and treatment, and dental office with each area separted by wooden benches. I set the boy down on a bench and went to find Dr. Bev to ask how to go about helping this boy. He sat there and cried and cried. He laid his head down on the bench because sitting up was too much of an effort for him.

Dr. Bev instructed Kayla and I on how to clean up the infection and we were told to give him both a malaria and HIV test. We began gathering what we needed. I created an intake sheet for the boy because we were all out of the registration cards because we were not planning on seeing more kids. The uncle of the child appeared at this time and claimed that he was taking care of the boy. I was happy to see at least a relative but I had to calm my anger at the fact that letting a child become as sick as this little boy could be considered “taking care”. The uncle gave us some information for the registration card.  The beautiful little boy is named Tehankounibe. I give his name in hopes that you will remember to pray for him. We were shocked to discover Tehankounibe is 6 yrs old. The entire time I had been speaking to him as if he were a 3yr old because his body was so small and malnourished he looked too young to be over 3. But when we looked at his teeth they revealed he was indeed 6. I asked my translator to prep the medicine for the severe malnutrition treatment.

Then I sat down and began the tedious task of picking off all of the scabbed over and harderned drainage from his infection that covered over half his head. For a half hour I worked at it one small piece of a time. The pastor from the Williston team and my translator held the lights for me as it was late afternoon and the sun was just beginning to retire. Kayla began to bathe the child from head to foot in a disinfecting solution. We had to take of his clothes to clean him up and I noticed his shirt was covered in flies lying on the floor. We would not be putting that shirt back on him. The sponge bath Kayla gave Tehankounibe caused his open sores to sting and several of the spots on his head began to bleed and his scalp appeared raw as I continued to clean the sores.
Tehankounibe cried. He was hurting in so many ways. Not once did his uncle come over to comfort him or even say a word of encouragement. There was no one there for this child. As I cleaned I would stop and tell him “gafarda”, I’m sorry, and comfort him as much as I could.

As tears streamed down Tehankounibe he would look back at me with a face I will never forget and cry out, “Mama” over and over and over and over again.  But his mother was not there. She left him.

I looked back at him and willed myself not to cry. Several times I stopped cleaning his head because I couldn’t see from the tears filling my eyes.

A short time later Dr. Bev joined us and finished bandaging Tehankounibe up. She cut a hole in a large medical towel and made him something like a shirt/robe to wear because the child had nothing else. We got the test results back. Malaria was positive but I praised the Lord he was negative for HIV. I adminstered med after med until we had given him everything we could. Then Dr. Bev gave him a different form of medicince he needed just as much. She picked him up and held that little boy. He clung to her still crying for “mama” but calmed down quickly and finally found some peace in his shattered world.

I longed to hold Tehankounibe too. I longed to do anything to take away his pain. If it were a possibility I would not think twice about bringing him home with me.

When we were finished and had to return home we handed Tehankounibe to the woman who had showed him to me. I thanked her so much for bringing me to him and told her I would be praying for him. He was sleeping by the time they walked out the door. I felt like crying out for her to bring him back as they left. It was so hard to let him go.

Tehankounibe majorly touched the heart of pastor Paul who was holding the light for us and Dr. Bev as well. Before we left we made sure that the pastor of Balambar would take care of him and our team provided him with food to give to Tehankounibe so at least he will not be hungry.  I can’t speak for them but I’m sure they felt the same as I did in wishing we could have done more.
Meeting Tehankounibe was the most moving and impactful experience I had my entire time in Africa. After seeing so much during my previous 10 weeks I thought I had figured out how I felt about life here. But God used an encounter on my last day on the continent to shake me up so much that I feel like I am back at square one. No matter how much I try to process Tehankounibe’s situation it will never make sense to me. I will never be able to understand why his mother left and why someone would not love such a beautiful precious child.

Tehankounibe’s face has kept me up at night and the sound of his cry seems to fill the room while I try to sleep. I cannot explain it but my life is different after meeting him. Tehankounibe and other encounters in Africa have changed me. Everything I see and hear now first goes through a filter I didn’t have before coming here. I don’t see anything the same anymore. I am no longer innocent of spiritual and physical poverty and it as real as the chair I’m sitting on. I have a new knowledge that requires taking action. I will spend the rest of my life seeking God and discovering what my role is in alleviating some of the brokeness. Everything changes now. The faces of the people I met in Africa, like 5 yr old HIV positive Michael, will motivate everything I do from this point on. Sick kids like Tehankounibe will be my drive in medical school. They will be a part of every decision I make. I will never forget.

Things I Take for Granted in America


Since the day I left I have been keeping a running list of all of the things I take for granted in America. The list has topped out at 45!

1) Clean water
2) Flushing toilets
3) Fresh cold real milk
4) Constant electricity
5) Flat roads
6) Brushing my teeth with water from the sink
7) Hot showers
8) Strict traffic laws that are usually followed
9) Air conditioning
10) Few bugs in the house
11) Only need to know one language to communicate
12) Privacy
13) Waking up to an alarm when I choose to instead of to a rooster at 4:30am
14) Wearing pants
15) Unlimited internet access
16) Toilet paper is provided
17) Washing machine
18) Dishwasher
19) Fresh raw vegetables
20) Appointments and schedules
21) Running outside every day
22) Cold weather
23) Feeling clean
24) Staying clean for more than 5 minutes
25) Singing in the shower
26) Comfy furniture
27) Real mattresses
28) Fluffy soft towels dried in the dryer
29) A balanced diet
30) Quick errands
31) Fast food
32) Radio
33) Friends and  family close by
34) Salt and other spices actually come out of the shakers and are not hardened by humidity
35) Cheese
36) Going barefoot
37) Not sleeping in a sea of bugspray
38) I can call 911
39) Straight hair
40) Sunlight past supper time
41) Lunch exists
42) Using drinking fountains
43) Garbage cans
45) Looking people in the eye when we talk